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Friday, February 11, 2011

Dear Dad

It was exactly on this day, last year when my world changed for good. I spent the morning sleeping, blissfully unaware of the conversations Abu and my father in law were having. The day started late, after a night of fitful sleep. I went to office, all set to get my self in order to bid my adieus the next day. My evening was spent at a social event, where the whole time I was only thinking if I am dressed right or am not looking too fat in the dress despite being 9 months pregnant. I did not even take a hint when Abu left in the middle of the day for Pune, absolutely unannounced.
How I wish I could have been there for you. Why do I keep feeling like things would have been different if I were there. If I could have spoken to you, or seen you smile and tell me that everything will be alright.
I dont even want to think about the last time I saw you, or the last words we spoke to each other, because it still hurts. If I had known that the last time was indeed the last time, I dont know what I would have done.
Oh well, bygones be bygones.. I just hope that you are looking at me from the heavens with the same pride that you used to when I was a child. That you are still watching over me, and now your grandson.
Life will never be complete without you.
I love you.